I simply can’t believe that it’s July tomorrow! How did this happen? How did I blink my eyes only to find that half of the year has gone by already? It’s a bit scary when that happens, isn’t it?!?!
I can remember being really little and having the summers off from school. That two months seemed like an eternity and by the end, I couldn’t wait to get back to school to see my friends. I never thought it could happen but, when you’re young…two months is a long time! Long enough even (wait for it…) to get bored!
It’s striking me a bit more this year because I will be turning thirty this July. THIRTY! And I haven’t yet decided how I feel about that. Better yet, I haven’t yet figured out how three decades went by so fast. I will officially be an adult soon and looking back, it seems like just yesterday, I was coming home from summer camp or starting high school. We complain often throughout our lives about the lack of consistency and the lack of solid foundations to rely on…and yet, time is always there…ticking away at the very same pace that is was when we were first born. Time is the constant in our life while we discover that we’re actually the ones that have stepped out of pace.
It’s the age old tale of wishing your life away. When I was young I couldn’t wait to be older and when I was older, I couldn’t wait to “get out” of it (really, adolescence was just eight years of trying to avoid embarrassment!) and then as I got a little bit older again, I started to long for the days of being young; free of obligation and the knowledge that comes with understanding.
For the first time though, I feel like my feelings have caught up with my age. Yes, there is a slight tinge of panic that is coming with this new decade but, I’m also pleased with the idea of leaving my twenties. My twenties were the best of times and the worst of times. My twenties shaped me in a way that no other time in my life has…but I’m ready to say goodbye. I’m ready to face the maturity that comes with the thirties. As far as I’m concerned, our twenties are a little bit like the Bermuda Triangle of adulthood…neither here nor there…just a dark hole in the middle somewhere that unfortunately, some people never find their way out of. I’m hoping that the thirties will provide a certain sophistication that can’t be found in keg parties and university apartments!!
I’m taken aback sometimes by how quickly my twenties seemed to have passed me by. Granted, there were moments when the agony felt like it would never end but, all in all, I’m just hoping that this pattern of rapid fire birthdays doesn’t continue! There’s got to be a pause button somewhere and a bed of roses to smell along the way!
Otherwise, that means that forty is just around the corner and I definitely know that I’m not quite ready for that one just yet!
I can remember being really little and having the summers off from school. That two months seemed like an eternity and by the end, I couldn’t wait to get back to school to see my friends. I never thought it could happen but, when you’re young…two months is a long time! Long enough even (wait for it…) to get bored!
It’s striking me a bit more this year because I will be turning thirty this July. THIRTY! And I haven’t yet decided how I feel about that. Better yet, I haven’t yet figured out how three decades went by so fast. I will officially be an adult soon and looking back, it seems like just yesterday, I was coming home from summer camp or starting high school. We complain often throughout our lives about the lack of consistency and the lack of solid foundations to rely on…and yet, time is always there…ticking away at the very same pace that is was when we were first born. Time is the constant in our life while we discover that we’re actually the ones that have stepped out of pace.
It’s the age old tale of wishing your life away. When I was young I couldn’t wait to be older and when I was older, I couldn’t wait to “get out” of it (really, adolescence was just eight years of trying to avoid embarrassment!) and then as I got a little bit older again, I started to long for the days of being young; free of obligation and the knowledge that comes with understanding.
For the first time though, I feel like my feelings have caught up with my age. Yes, there is a slight tinge of panic that is coming with this new decade but, I’m also pleased with the idea of leaving my twenties. My twenties were the best of times and the worst of times. My twenties shaped me in a way that no other time in my life has…but I’m ready to say goodbye. I’m ready to face the maturity that comes with the thirties. As far as I’m concerned, our twenties are a little bit like the Bermuda Triangle of adulthood…neither here nor there…just a dark hole in the middle somewhere that unfortunately, some people never find their way out of. I’m hoping that the thirties will provide a certain sophistication that can’t be found in keg parties and university apartments!!
I’m taken aback sometimes by how quickly my twenties seemed to have passed me by. Granted, there were moments when the agony felt like it would never end but, all in all, I’m just hoping that this pattern of rapid fire birthdays doesn’t continue! There’s got to be a pause button somewhere and a bed of roses to smell along the way!
Otherwise, that means that forty is just around the corner and I definitely know that I’m not quite ready for that one just yet!
7 comments:
i love how you said soon you'll be officially an adult :)
I'm pretty sure I read somewhere that stores won't even let you buy gummy bears once you turn thirty!!!!
Game over!
Yes...stores will allow you to buy Gummi Bears when you are 30 just as long as you have children with you. Sooo...if you start now you only have to wait 9 months until you can buy them again...but then again they may not sell them to you just yet being that we all know newborns can't eat Gummi Bears. :)
Ah nuts…now you’ve just given our parents another reason to be patiently “on guard” ;)
Ahhh yes I am afraid that there will be "No Vacancy" in my womb for quite a while now!! So all hope of the little pitter patter of new grandchildren feet all falls on you and Steve!!
:) KKS
The year leading up to my 30th was filled with trepidation, but as the days of my 20's wound down, the fear fell away.
I am more confident in my 30's than I was in my 20's. I walk taller and prouder. I feel that my opinions are taken more seriously and some children even look up to me!
This December, 31 is creeping up on me....and you know what? No fear at all! I love being in my thirties* Welcome them with open arms Gen!
** the fact that I got ID'd at the liquor store last month really helps
I think that we need to find a way to “bottle” your enthusiasm, Kristy! It’s so awesome and I know that I could definitely use a dose of it on a daily basis (alongside my morning coffee!)!
Thanks for the encouragement!
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